I hate decisions.
I don’t want to make any big decisions that I will have to stick with. That I will have to answer to.
Decisions require confidence.
And that is both easy and incredibly complicated.
When I get all wrapped up in worry about what I’m going to do in the future, it stems from fear controlling my confidence.
I’m so thankful today that God does not change based on how I feel. His love and His plan doesn’t change for me just because I’m stressing out. God does not change because I am scared. God doesn’t leave us when we question everything about the future.
Instead, He wants to meet us in those situations. He wants to meet us when we can’t sleep because we’re thinking too much. He wants us to focus on where He has placed us right now, to pray about everything, and then to rest in the peace that He is sovereign. He wants us to do whatever we can, right here. He wants to build us up in the confidence that He gives. To remind us to we are His, and will be forever. To cast out fear. To make decisions and stick with them, knowing that we are making them in the confidence that He gives.
I don’t know what I will do in the future, but I’m starting to accept the peace that is in just living out today. And knowing that whatever I do, wherever I am, I will be walking it with Him.
He is the glue that puts me back together and holds me after I feel so torn.