I googled an informercial last night. To legitimately watch.
It was 1:30 AM and I couldn’t sleep, but I also really wanted to watch it.
I thought about ordering it in the middle of the night, but I didn’t want to fully succumb to the “informercial woes”. So I waited until 1:00 PM today. So much better.
I ordered INSANITY!! MUAHAHAHA!
Yes it is one of those informercial health things, but I’ve heard good things about it. And that it is actually really hard, like INSANE.
I’m going to really do this. I’m going to stick the plan no matter how hard it is or how badly I want to quit. I’m excited, but also a little scared.
I flipped my Bible open to 1 Peter today to start this Bible Study. (This was also the post that got me thinking about ordering Insanity). I read the first chapter and realized I had been thinking about the dog halfway through so I went back and re-read it. Then I read it again. I stopped at the verse where it has discipline and grace in the same sentence. Aren’t those opposites? Doesn’t grace mean that we can be more relaxed about discipline?
(Well yes, theres grace for everything, but God still calls us to be disciplined and be holy because He is holy.)
“Therefore, get your minds ready for action, being self-disciplined and set your hope completely on the grace to be brought to you at the revelation of Jesus Christ.”
-1 Peter 1:13
I want this summer to test me, to push me, to force me to dig deep. Which is why I ordered Insanity and which is why I’m setting goals. But I also want it to test me by allowing grace to sink deeper to places I have pushed way back in the closet and locked in a tiny box. To live in the moment by not worrying about the future. To listen to the Holy Spirit and go out with confidence to share the Gospel in this city. To be a witness in my workplace and not just my Facebook page. (Which is currently being taken over by dogs).
All these things take discipline and grace, given by the hope of our Savior.