why not?

To recap a little, the leadership retreat was amazing. I was a ball of nerves the whole way there and literally as soon as I stepped out of the car I felt the nerves slip away. It was so encouraging to be with so many other students who want to see Florida State turned upside down for the Gospel.

That also worked on my “I just want to move to another country” mentality to remind me of the importance of being at FSU. I “knew” that it was important for me to be here in terms of education, but was missing the mark about what I was really doing.

Today after my first class I helped trade surveys for ice pops with cru. The last three questions asked if they wanted more info on a relationship with God, if they were interested in a Bible study, and if they were interested in cru. They can mark yes, no, or maybe. The yeses made me happy, but it was the maybes that got me, there were so many! So many students are at least curious about God, maybe even open to Him. Yes, the harvest is great.

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The church I’m going to has a saying, “why not Tallahassee?” Well, why not? The pastor said that he believes if the campus is changed, the city will be changed. If the city is changed, the state will be changed. If the state is changed, the country will be changed. If the country is changed, the whole world will be changed. We can’t do that, but Jesus can. The Gospel can. People are hungry. The harvest is great.

Why not, Tallahassee?

I’m starting this school year with a prayer to be intentional. I’m praying that the Lord would open my eyes to the hurting all around me and the healing power of the Gospel. I’m praying that I would be bold, for I am not ashamed of the Gospel. I’m praying that I would not grow weary, but always keep my eyes on Christ and be renewed by Him. Its not going to be easy to change the world, but He can do it.

Why not, {insert your location}?

 

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to the weekend we go.

The rest continues as I move into the weekend. After work today, I’ll be preparing to head to the beach. FSUCRU has their leadership retreat this weekend and I’m so excited I get the opportunity to go.

Retreats are always a little challenging for me. I have to constantly remind myself to breath. That I have nothing to prove because I am already made whole. I have to calm my nerves and remind my heart that it could never be made any fuller by other people’s approval. Even with brothers and sisters in Christ, I have to silence the urge to compare. My goodness, what would I do without grace?

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So, I’m entering the weekend reminding myself of my roots in Christ, roots that can always grow deeper, roots that grow the most with rains of grace. I’m entering this weekend surrendering my fears and choosing to be present.

I hope your weekend is filled with rest. I hope you’re reminded of your roots, and how much you’ve grown. I hope you are found in a moment of awe at the ability to surrender.

To the weekend we go!

 

fall goals {part one}

Over the next couple days I’ll be sharing the goals I have for the fall. I’m plastering Hebrews 12 over and on everything, as I move forward. Some goals will be small, like waking up on time, and others are a biiiit bigger.

The first one may be taking Hebrews 12 a little too seriously, but I’m going with it. I have a few friends who have also been bitten by the racing bug and are on board to train for some upcoming races! After my first half-marathon I had plans to do more shortly after, but life happened and thats that. We’ve also talked about doing a triathlon, so who knows!

Training and running my first half was one of the best experiences in my life and I can’t wait to do it again! The one I’m thinking about right now is the St. Pete’s Women’s Half on November 18th, so I need to get moving!

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I still need to make up a plan, which I will do this week. I want to try and work in Insanity with training for it, buuuut that might be a little ambitious ha. Either way, just thinking about doing this is exciting!!

 

 

a special day.

I’ve got another post comin atcha later in the day, but I had to pop in again and give a birthday shout out to one special special lady in my life.

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My sweet sister Skylar, if I would have known that I would have gained such an incredible sister when my parents got divorced, it wouldn’t have been so hard. I am completely amazed at how the Lord has shaped you and your heart for his people. I can’t believe you’re already graduated and getting ready for the next chapter in your life. You’ve got the space and heart to do anything. I know He’ll lead you to it. You’ve already changed and impacted so many lives, and so many more will be added. The future will match you dear sister, so so bright. I wish I was there to celebrate with you today, but know that I’m thinking of you! I know we’ve got some beautiful years ahead of us. Love you so so so SO much! MUAH!!

Love,

Hannah

the race.

Times at home always go by way too fast. I head back to Tally tonight, and have a busy week before classes start. I just got done with summer classes, but I’m looking forward to fall. The new year, the new students, the change of weather, ahh I can’t wait for fall weather.

My dad’s sermon on Sunday reminded me of one of my favorite verses.

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“Therefore, since we also have such a large cloud of witnesses surrounding us, let us lay aside every weight and the sin that so easily ensnares us. Let us run with endurance the race that lies before us,  keeping our eyes on Jesus, the source and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that lay before Him endured a cross and despised the shame and has sat down at the right hand of God’s throne.

-Hebrews 12:12-2

As I start this new semester, I’ll keep these words on my heart. I’ll pray these over my days and my thoughts. I’ll remember the LORD calls us to holiness, which is only possible by keeping my eyes on Jesus.

I’ve been thinking about my goals for this semester this week and I want this verse to shape them. I’m entering this semester with a fresh dose of encouragement and excitement for all that the LORD has in store!

What are you currently looking forward to? Is there something you are expecting and allowing the LORD to shape in your heart? 

moments over fear.

Sometimes the reason I don’t blog is because I have so much that I want to talk about. Sometimes trying to push through all the branches in my head and try to make a coherent picture seems too exhausting. So I keep the picture hidden, until I have the courage to push through. But nothing comes out of fear.

I mentioned in my last post how I was trying to be more relaxed about what I was eating. To soak in the moment and so savor whats on my plate. In the very full day at Universal with my seven other family members on my dad’s side (we were missing my oldest brother), I remember moments. When I look back I’ll think of waiting in the blaring sun for a show that lasted ten boring minutes. I’ll hear my brother yelling “POOP” when the lights went out. I’ll remember the two hour wait talking to an older guy for a kiddy-minute roller coaster. I’ll remember the butterbeers, my first bite of fish in three years, calling my brother a piranha, meaning paria, and getting to spend the day with my family (we missed ya Ben!). We laughed, we sweated, we whined (some more than others 😉 ), and we made memories.

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I didn’t think about what I was going to eat all day. I didn’t worry about how many calories were in the Butterbeer (I don’t even want to know) or that there weren’t any super healthy choices. And that can be a little scary for me. Not obsessing about it means that I have to be present, allowing myself to not hide behind food. Now, it was a little easier because it was with my family, but for me that was a perfect place to start.

So I don’t know exactly what this means from here on out. But I know I’m going to feed my soul first. In The Word, and in moments that fill it up. I’ll move and exercise because it make me fell good and strong, not out of obligation. I’ll eat out of response to caring for my body, foods that are good for me and good for the environment. Choosing to let grace cover the legalistic thoughts that tell me I should do otherwise. I’ll choose moments over fear, grace over hiding. I’ll choose Him, and let the rest fall where it may.

deep breath.

My crazy six weeks of summer classes is over! Now I have a little break at home before I head back to Tally for work and getting ready for the fall semester.

I took five days off from work so I could celebrate on of my best friends birthday and then come home for a few days. There really is nothing like being around family. I got to see my dad preach this morning, and tomorrow the whole gang is waking up bright and early to spend the day at Harry Potter World in Universal. I’m pretty excited. I’m not taking one moment of this time for granted, just soaking it all in and be refreshed before I go right back into craziness.

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I’m trying to give myself a break, trying to let the thoughts of should and should nots slip away. Letting those lessons about grace continue to take root so I can take a deep breath. Last week after making yet another list of what I was going to do to “get back on track” I decided to rip it up. I tore that list to shreds and stuffed in the garbage. And then I took a deep breath. And then I ate the bagel with cream cheese my teacher brought for the class. And then I had (veggie) sushi with friends and fro-yo. And then I didn’t work out for a week.

I felt the urge to make another list. To swear off sugar, to eat only veggies. But I took a deep breath and remembered grace. Its only been a small step, but in letting a little grace in that part of me I’ve been able to exhale. I’ve been able to not feel crazy about the food that was in front of me and enjoy my moments. My veggie consumption wasn’t as high as it normally is, and I might be a little bloated (tmi? 😉 ) but I’m okay with that while I’m learning.

I’ll eat lots of leafy greens again. I’ll eat less sugar. I’ll feed my body so I can feel good. I’ll learn to eat those so I can feel good in mind and body, so I can be in the moment regardless of whats on my plate. But above all, I will choose grace.

And tomorrow, I’m havin a Butterbeer.

 

content.

Can we just take a moment?

A moment to look around and realize when even though things aren’t perfect (they won’t ever be) that we are content. 

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That we are here.

That we are His.

That we loved.

That we are content.

By His love, and by His grace.

My LORD gives. My LORD loves. My LORD meets me where I am.

I am HIS, and I am content.

Thank you, Father.