Summer is O-FFIC-IALL-Y here and people are going places. People are spending summers in London, Africa, China, and awesome places within the borders of the good ole U-S of A. I’m excited for them; I’m excited for my trip to Guatemala. 26. Days. Crazy.
Ever since high school I’ve had the travel bug. I would say I’ve had it forever, but my Gramma would say, “Remember on the plane back from London and I asked you if this trip made you want to travel more and you said ‘no’?” Yes, Gramma I do remember and I was twelve and the plane ride was LONG. But, it did. It still does.
I think traveling and experiencing a different culture and country is fantastic, and I want to do it my whole life (like my Gramma), but I wonder how this desire intertwines with missions. I do believe God gives us unique passions for a reason, and I believe He uses those to place us where we will use those most for His glory, but I think things can get a little blurry when we start acting on our desires rather than His calling.
Before I know it, it’s going to be time to start seriously thinking about after college. The Lord has been so gracious with me in taking away so much anxiety I was holding about “the future” so I haven’t been thinking about it too too much. Yes, I have some ideas, but really I have no clue. I would love to teach abroad. I would love to teach here and pour into my students. I would love to go into full time ministry and just love and serve people all day long. When I say that last one, I usually mean “I would love to go into full time ministry, travel the world, meet all sorts of people, work in orphanages, feed the hungry, etc..” But the reality is, I don’t have to, nor am I specifically called (yet) to do that. Mostly because I can do that right where I am, where ever I am. I am already called to do that, because all followers of Jesus are.
I think about all these opportunities to go abroad, whether in ministry or not, and wonder how much my desire would be responding before the quiet kneeling before Jesus asking, “whats next?” I do have the desire to travel, but we are not called to act on every desire. For, “The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it?” (Jeremiah 17:9). If I were to “follow my heart” I might (most definitely) would have dropped out of school to move to Africa or Central America to adopt a bunch a babies, I would eat cookies all day, I would read for fun all day, and drink tons of coffee (more than I already do). But cookies all day are not God’s plan for my life, and as I have grudgingly learned, neither is dropping out of school.
All this to say, I have to watch my desirous, deceitful heart. I have to seek His Will through prayer and time devoted to just sitting with Him, listening. I am called to love people, to serve them wherever they are and wherever I am. Wherever I go, whatever I do if I call myself a follower of Jesus, He calls me to love Him first, then love others to lead them to Him. Everything else are details to be worked out as we walk, together.